so i havent written one of these in a really long time, i dont evencare if anyone does read it cause its not for you..haha, i was reading through all my old entries and i have realized how much i have really grown up, but then i turn to mindsay, but this isnt for anyone but me.  i need to be able to express myself weather someone reads it i really could care less.

so college has been good its really insane though....i still can believe im here, im here and now i guess my friends are also.  not that ive made any, its kind of wierd that i havent i always thought of myself as approchable but maybe not i guess who knows,.  so being away from brad is insane, i love hom soooo much and i never want to leave him, he really is my everything that feeling you long for the feeling to be loved and to love i have that and its amazing! im soooo happy to be with him, i was reading the old entries, i had forgotten how i felt in the beginning, its kind of refreshing to go back and look and see the things that he siad to me and that made me feel sooo good, and that he loves me for me, when i have a bad hair day when im in a bad mood, when i smell bad and dont feel good.  sometimes i feel that its a misfortune that we met when we were so young, because i already have that feeling, that romance that alot of people never find

ive got it and im only 18